Wednesday, November 15, 2006

at first they were tears of jealousy...why them and not her? she wondered
and then tears of worry...would her turn ever come?
then came tears of loneliness...would she have to spend the rest of her nights in solitude?
and tears of pain...how much more rejection and disappointment would she suffer?
then there were tears of sadness...would she get to raise her children as a young mommy?
and tears of fear...would she ever get to hold her own baby?
then tears of regret...how many mistakes had she made along the way?
and tears of anger...did He forget her?? she wondered
then came tears of exhaustion...how much more would she have to endure?

but the real tears came at the end.. when it occurred to her that she had spent her whole life in tears...

28 Comments:

At Wednesday, November 15, 2006 8:32:00 PM, Blogger Lvnsm27 said...

great message, we should live in the moment

 
At Wednesday, November 15, 2006 9:05:00 PM, Blogger socialworker/frustrated mom said...

Very moving thanks.

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 1:29:00 AM, Blogger flör said...

i'm so sorry m00ks..

i used to think the same..(but you knew that already;)

captivating photo though; quite nicely captures the essence of the feelings/mood you're trying to convey..

He never forgets.
He's just taking a bit longer on the details of your prince. perfecting every chisel-line so you have a masterpiece [withinas well as without] to gaze on the rest of your life.

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 5:59:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

beautiful picture
flor's comment is touching
your post is above and beyond moving mooks
you have really captured my heart
Your post is like a prayer
You have captured G-ds ear long ago Mooks
I want to say - may your will be His..
but it's the wrong way around some how..
May His will be yours and may you find happiness and fulfillment with the right one for you

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 8:47:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

mooks,

this post made me cry

signed: your trusty procrastinator


P.S. I have this feeling that soon you will be surprising us with the most amazing news!

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 9:37:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

very moving! Just remember god gives each of us what we can handle and soon enough you will see threason behind the tears.

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 11:20:00 AM, Blogger Open Up! said...

all i can say is there's a reason why we say b'sha-ah tova...each time has it's own mazel and you don't want something happening before it's the right time for it...sometimes it seems hopeless but the picture will become clearer soon...i'yh b'sha-ah tova!

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 11:34:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

woah (add it to the list)
i think i appreciated this so much because it is written in a stlye so simliar to my own.
its chilling.
my personal thought process would reflect this completely.

May hashem shower you with brochos and hatzlacha in a revealed and open manner. no more guessing and no more waiting. in all areas of your life. p.s. hows the search for the funky yet comfy shoes goin?

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 12:48:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Open Up--sorry to disagree, but your wrong. just like G-d is not limited to showering blessings on us, he isn't limited on bringing those brachos "B'KAROV." so when u give a blessing to someone, don't limit G-D's infinite capabities; instead, give them a double blessing--the substantive blessing and that it should happen SOON.

MOOKS: may u see revealed good and VERY SOON.


Signed: still procrastinating

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 2:40:00 PM, Blogger Chasidishe Shaigitz said...

Very touching.

May your life be full of tears - tears of joy!

All the best.

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 4:03:00 PM, Blogger Limey2001 said...

Hazorim bedimah b'rina
wis joy and wis trears wis tears and wis joy

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 7:12:00 PM, Blogger anonym00kie said...

lvnsm27..
it really is sad how much time we spend regretting the past and waiting for the future to happen..

socialworker/frustrated mom..
thanks

flör..
dont be sorry.. thats life.
and i have no doubts that when i do find him.. he will be a real work of art :P

the only way i know..
may i find happiness with or without the right one.. this post is about being happy.. not about being married.
but thanks :)

my favoritist anonymous..
ooh thats gonna be so fun.. im gonna come up with such a great post when i do :)
(you know ure a blog addict when you want to get engaged so that you have good blogging material :)
p.s. cheerleaders dont cry!

chaverah..
g-d sometimes seems to beleive we are way more capable than we realize..

open up!..
thats right, each time has its own purpose and its a shame when you waste one period of time waiting for another one to come.

the sabra..
i actually thought of that when i posted it 'this looks like sabra's style' :)
shoes are doing fine, job is good, no lottery ticket but i dont really need it..
really all that seems to be missing is somoene to fluff my pillow (preferably not in a french maid outfit)
..and thanks for your bracha..

still my most favorite anonymous..
i hear what youre saying, i agree that at this point i cant be waiting for "the right time" i need the MAKE the right time happen and beg for the right time to come and make sure g-d points me in the right direction for that to happen.. but.. like i wrote in my comment to open up.. it would be nice to be able to enjoy each time.. in its time.

chasidishe shaigitz..
amen! ty

limey2001..
beautiful, thanks!

 
At Thursday, November 16, 2006 11:02:00 PM, Blogger Lakewood Venter said...

What a great message!

 
At Friday, November 17, 2006 12:11:00 AM, Blogger flör said...

:stopping by to wave:


check your inbox girl! my stuff randomly combusts..

 
At Friday, November 17, 2006 6:32:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'm with you for happiness in all ways, mooks - no question there...
although you message emphasised a wish to share your life..

may your tears stem from joy

 
At Friday, November 17, 2006 6:58:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow. Very well done from start to finish. Touching. Also - I appreciate all your postings, the whole blog.

 
At Friday, November 17, 2006 2:10:00 PM, Blogger David_on_the_Lake said...

Oh my goodness.....
My heart is torn to shreds reading this...
But what a great last line...

Keep the faith Mooks...we love you..!

 
At Sunday, November 19, 2006 11:12:00 AM, Blogger Moiy-rah said...

well written.

i feel it.

-moiy

 
At Sunday, November 19, 2006 1:15:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

been there
really!
as I'm married the best I can do is a virtual hug

 
At Sunday, November 19, 2006 8:36:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi!
Moving post!
Stopping in to say hi....after all you were from the first to get my blog going. Thanks.
Keep up the good work!

 
At Monday, November 20, 2006 10:45:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

crying is a healthy outlet they say,but as withy everything an overdose is something to stay far away from.

Powerful message.

 
At Monday, November 20, 2006 2:54:00 PM, Blogger 1beautiful-stranger said...

wow!!
this is by far the best article i've read since...umm...ever
It hits the nail right on the head!

 
At Tuesday, November 21, 2006 7:14:00 AM, Blogger ~ Sarah ~ said...

very moving.
right from the heart.
i know what it's like.

 
At Tuesday, November 21, 2006 10:42:00 AM, Blogger kasamba said...

Whoa!!!
That was some powerful post!

 
At Wednesday, November 22, 2006 12:34:00 AM, Blogger anonym00kie said...

LV..
thanks, point is to remmeber it when the tears are about to pour out..

flör..
its been checked.. just gimme timeee... not all of us are floating on cloud 9, some of us have.. things to do!

the only way i know..
amen

anonymous..
thanks so much, nice to get encouragement

david_on_the_lake..
youre so sweet :)

moiy-rah..
thanks, sadly, too many seem to feel it ..

yingerman..
i dont really do virtual hugs :) but ill take the empathy.. thanks

independant frum thinker..
thanks for coming by..

pragmatician..
oh im totally for crying..
but theres crying, and then theres spending your life crying.. definitely not healthy

1beautiful-stranger..
wow!! thanks!

~ Sarah ~..
definitely, from my own life and from others ive seen literally waste away their life drowning in tears..

kasamba..
im a powerful woman :)

 
At Wednesday, November 22, 2006 12:11:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Didn't mean to offend your spritual waves.
Empathy? sure anytime, after all I'm jewish too.

 
At Wednesday, November 22, 2006 9:36:00 PM, Blogger flör said...

cloud? where?
i musta missed it.

Crooked though it's finger; real life beckons first.

 
At Sunday, November 26, 2006 8:04:00 PM, Blogger Jack's Shack said...

Interesting.

 

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