at first they were tears of jealousy...why them and not her? she wondered
and then tears of worry...would her turn ever come?
then came tears of loneliness...would she have to spend the rest of her nights in solitude?
and tears of pain...how much more rejection and disappointment would she suffer?
then there were tears of sadness...would she get to raise her children as a young mommy?
and tears of fear...would she ever get to hold her own baby?
then tears of regret...how many mistakes had she made along the way?
and tears of anger...did He forget her?? she wondered
then came tears of exhaustion...how much more would she have to endure?

but the real tears came at the end.. when it occurred to her that she had spent her whole life in tears...