I collapse into his inviting embrace
uneasy with the intimacy
– at first
craving the safety
– urgently
hesitantly mouthing what he expects to hear
eager for the moment when we’ll connect
– finally
I close my eyes
corporeal constraints cease to exist
if only for a few seconds
..............I welcome the refuge
reminding myself that this is our time
alone
existence encapsulated
where being is doing
I hold him and rock him in my arms
bonding
searching for the courage to unload
what my heart conceals
and my mind yearns to forget
I fight the impulse to step back, reminded that even when
He doesn’t need
to hear it,
I need
to say it
that
which I don’t trust
and don’t want
and don’t allow
anyone else to know
he has witnessed and heard and felt
He knows
but there is no shame between us,
............the one time
............and the one place
............and the one way
............I can let go
............completely
............and connect
............completely
............and believe and feel and trust
............completely
............that I’m not alone
both aware than once I take those
three
steps
back
I’ll leave him behind
looking at me
longing for me
hoping that maybe this time
I’ll keep the connection alive until
we meet again.
41 Comments:
Beautiful poem.
Love it, actually.
I'm going to pray right now...
But what's with the pic?
It doesn't exactly evoke wonderful images in my mind...
thanks..
Wow...such an approach to tefillah! I'm really impressed.
mooks - no prob.
any time.
Have a great Shabbos!
and i thought you were talking about your bf.....
hmmm maybe you were
Beautifully expressed.
Reading this helps bring back the feelings that I often lose.
(I didn't see any pic...)
wow. so beautfully expressed
I didn't get it at first, seems that those Hungarian roots I have.... effect me, so I get things slower.... but once I do....
another great one by you
Subtle, clever and very literate. Nice one.
wow great imagery
Nuch -- I believe the word you are looking for is "affect."
Sorry, back to the featured programming...
how stunning mooks
i sorta knew what was coming..
but love the message it holds between a lover and loved one as well
wawaweeewa...
Unreal. The way you expressed that..
People complain of the fact that prayer is required and therefore not personal somehow..
But you've shown how intense and personal it can be ..The reason why its required is because the body tries so hard to sever the connection and most of the time we listen to him...
And I concur with all of the above :)
Awesome.
Scraps..
dont be.. its a rare occurence.. unfortunately!
beryl..
if i was talking about a bf, i wouldnt be sharing it with you guys..now would i??
Bas~Melech...
it inspires me too to know it can be this way
nuch a chosid..
better late than never :)
Anonymous,
lvnsm27,
Chasidishe Shaigitz..
thanks
the only way i know..
you should have told nuch :P
David_on_the_Lake..
the required prayers are just tools, like giving someone you love a gift, flowers, a kiss. what makes it personal is the deeper intentions and emotions that accompany it. no reason it should be any different with G-d.
i have two questions for you guys
- do you find this post cliche? if so, is it the topic or the way it's written..?
- do you find it inappropriate?
I've heard some comments in private and I'd like to hear what others think.
yishakaini mnshikos pihu. well said!
Its not only a truly master-piece, it tell something about you as a person.
inappropriate? how's that??
i really liked it, especially these verses:
that
which I don’t trust
and don’t want
and don’t allow
anyone else to know
he has witnessed and heard and felt
He knows
but there is no shame between us,
...i was just talking to G-d today (in my car) and your words so very much match my own experience. not only was the poem excellent, but it's comforting to know i'm not alone with my private darkness. others have it, too.
thank you so much for sharing.
not cliche at all.
it's a new take on an old topic, which is absolutely awesome!
and totally not inappropriate.
just written on a mature level, that's all.
I think it's beautiful. :)
Ein chodosh tachas (or tachat) hashemesh
Theres no such thing as a new topic..
There are cliche ways of talking about them...this was definitely not cliche..
i agree with dreamer
Chasidic Buchar ..
so glad to see youre back!
Maven..
sometimes it really does feal like its the only time and place when you can be completely open and honest. i think thats why there have been times when i was very 'disconnected', not praying, not into the whole thing and i felt a painful loneliness eventhough i was surrounded by people. keep talking to g-d in your car, i think thats why He loves us womyn :P
The Dreamer..
but i wouldnt want to show it to my rabbi (and hes an adult :).. doesnt that say something about its appropriateness?
Scraps..
Limey..
David_on_the_Lake..
thanks!
really? your rabbi's an adult?
lol.
not really. if you had an older woman/mentor, would you show it to her?
I wouldn't show a lot of what I write to my Rabbi. Nothing to do with inappropriateness, Just with the fact that you know him and he knows you and you're a woman and he's a man.
Get the difference?
.......fabulous.
If I was talking about a bf I'd share it lol. This was really beautiful...I love the relationship you portray...
david_on_the_lake...i agree that the poem's tone was not cliche, it's also not a chiddush. think of shir hashirim.
wow! beautiful. really portrays our relationship with the Holy One is a new light. its not routine. it's beautiful.
thnaks
mooooooooooo
You are fine as always. Nothing cliche about it, in my opinion, one should take it very intimately with Him. Closer to Him than to any human, and with greater union.
hey mookie! you gonna be writing something new any time soon? I miss your posts...
Bonjour, ici Patrice
Comment allez-vous ?
Je vais bien
Tu peux m'aider ?
Comment dit-on Mookie en français ?
O Canada, terre de nos aïeux,
Ton front est ceint de fleurons glorieux.
Car ton bras sait porter l'épée,
Il sait porter la croix.
Ton histoire est une épopée
Des plus brillants exploits.
Et ta valeur, de foi trempée,
Protégera nos foyers et nos droits
J'ai oublié
Je ne suis pas du Canada.........
Je m'ennuie.......
A plus tard, A bientôt Au revoir
tu as oublié que tu n'est pas au canada..
mais si tu était au quebec.. tu t'en souviendrais..
nous sommes absents vous
Vous ne pouvez pas oublier les quebecois qu'ils sont toujours dans votre visage
the preceding should read
nous ennuyons de toi
my bad
Sorry
Non parley voos fransays
Just wanted to say that I miss a good daven.
It seems that my regular standard tefilla is just, well, standard.
I have had moments where, I just sob uncontrolably for a minute then continue.
Makes you feel like, just for a moment, that G-d reaches out to stroke your cheek, and just you know that Hashem does love you.
totally. this is what this was about. one of those rare times when i really experienced that. 99% of the time it's very standard, but it's worth working on for the 1%, i tell myself
yinger, use double negatives in french
non -pas
wish i had more thumbs to express my admiration for this one
Oh, wow. This is really nice. Heck, it's amazing.
By the way, i like the picture that you posted above ( the one with the END sign...)...
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